Why do you fear the rage in my eyes?

Why do you quell when you look at me now?

I remember when the only image

You would have seen in my eyes

Was you

Pure, unblemished, perfect.

A reflection of you cast in my soul and framed in my eyes

Now all I feel is blank

I see you standing there

I still see you

But I don’t feel you

I don’t contain you

And painfully

I don’t understand you

Every time you call my name

My heart beats a little faster

In fear.  Not elation

Every time we pass each other

Mumbled politeness

When once you knew secrets

I was afraid to tell myself

I thought we were meant to be

That our rhythms were cast in tandem

That the world could never trip me up

Because you would never let go

I was wrong

I wish every day I wasn’t

I feel like a phoenix

Dying in the hope of being reborn

But all you do,

Is sweep up the ashes

And trash them.

No being reborn for me

I wish you’d just let me burn

In eternal agonizing brilliance

That torture must be less

Than looking at you now

And seeing someone 

I no longer recognize